2017 Reflections and My 2018 Word of the Year
I believe it is always a great thing to reflect on your day, week, month, and year, as it can aid in your progress going forward to greatness. I came into 2017 freshly laid off from my full time job, separated from my husband for 9 months, confused, emotional, tired, but hopeful that I would finally begin growing and monetizing my business and that my marriage would be restored. To reflect on my 2017, I must get you up to speed by sharing a bit of 2015 and 2016. I conceived my idea for my fitness and wellness business in the summer of 2015 (my first coach was Alisha Nicole, founder of The Alisha Nicole and the brand, Living Over Existing - she has since become a good friend). I also met other amazing women like Maya Elious, Mattie James, Mariah Coz, Melyssa Griffin, Caitlin Bacher, and others, who have been instrumental in my efforts of learning the ways of the land of online entrepreneurship. But after consuming too much information too soon, I ended 2015 positive, but overwhelmed. 2016 was a cluster. Yeah, let's call it that. Trying to implement all that I was learning (all at the same time *eye rolls at myself*), launch, continue to learn, and deal with all the emotions of a spouse leaving the home. I tried, and that's all I can say. One thing I can say, is through the mental, physical, and emotional strain, I really learned a lot about myself. Hopefully, you'll come to some realizations about yourself from reading on.
I am more powerful than I give myself credit for. And so are you.
And you don't always know until you realize and embrace it for yourself. Tuning your mind to stay focused during turmoil is HARD. It's not impossible, though. You can still move and inspire people with the actions you CAN take. That's what I believe power is about; taking action is your superpower. It doesn't have to be big moves all the time, but you DO have to make moves. Even taking small steps towards the goals you have always equal up to big progress, and ultimately, big results. For me, in 2016, it was just about continuing to keep taking steps, no matter how small. One foot in front of the other was what kept me going during times when I wanted to say "forget it" and give up on something that was very important to me. Something as simple as sharing motivational words brought encouragement to others, and almost always brought encouragement to myself.
In 2017, I got consistent with HOW I wanted to deliver my message and with more time to give to my business because of the layoff (in December of 2016), I just knew I'd grow exponentially. That wasn't exactly the case, but I did grow. I became an official business (YAY!), I began building my body in ways I didn't think I would again, I had consistent clients, I became more visible, just by being myself. And simply by being myself, I have some amazing collaborations happening in 2018 already! Take time to embrace your power. Stand boldly in it.
I am resilient. And so are you.
This is the first time I am speaking about my separation and divorce publicly. Namely, because I held on to hope that my marriage would be restored, and then, maybe I'd have a different story to tell. A story of triumph. But that isn't the case. Not for my marriage anyway. The best part, though? This is STILL a story of triumph. I have prayed, spent so much time with God, journaled, worked, worked out, laughed, cried, stood my ground, and prayed some more. God's will is always greater than the plans we have for ourselves. I have had to seek peace every step of the way in 2016 and 2017. Everything I've gone through, my physical health and mental health have taken a huge shift. I learned that experiencing each experience and allowing it to run its course opens you up to receiving "the good stuff". But you've got to go through it to get to it. At the close of 2017, I can say that I received peace. I'm not where I want to be with my business, but now that my mind isn't consumed with confusion, worry, holding on to something/someone that isn't there, and in God's eyes, wasn't meant to be in the capacity I thought, I am open to receiving what God does have for me, because I'm allowing Him to lead me and I'm following His lead.
"How can we know what will happen to us, when the Lord alone decides?" - Proverbs 20:24.
This alone has changed my mentality and given me strength and resilience I need to act boldly and take big scary steps in 2018. When you decide that your circumstances don't outweigh your desire to be great, you realize your resilience when you go through to get to the good stuff. And believe me, you WILL go through, and whether you're about to go through, are in one now, or coming out of a storm, if you're still alive, just keep living.
I am magnetic. And so are you.
Your thoughts become things. Whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right. All of the cliché phrases you hear about keeping a positive/abundant/high vibration mentality are true. Don't believe me? Try for one day being grateful for literally everything in your day, expecting the best. Living as if what you think, already is. All those great vibes and opportunities will come flying at you. That's what happened for me. I told myself at the beginning of 2017 that I would allow my marriage separation woes to control my days any longer. Then I thought, "what if I actually focused and thought about the things I WANTED instead of the things I didn't?". So, I changed my verbiage to "I will seek joy and gratitude in each day." Whenever I focused on the things I wanted, I gave myself permission to act in ways that attracted abundance and opportunity. Now, don't get me wrong, I am still human, and I had some pretty crummy days in there where I was flat out sad and pitiful (hello, failing 9 year marriage/15+ year relationship), but I didn't allow myself to live in that state of mind anymore. I was able to shift easier in 2017 because I chose to seek counsel from God and spend time with Him first. I noticed when I didn't spend time with God daily, my day just seemed to be a little off whack. But that time was very important to me to get grounded and refocused on what actually mattered to me. Once I zeroed in on what I wanted to attract, I met people who would challenge me in my business, challenge me in my personal life and relationships with family and friends, and force me to level up my fitness life that much more. Find time to get still, focus on what matters to you, and position yourself mentally to take committed action, and your magnetic field will attract everything you need to soar.
In 2015, my business, heck, my life, was just a seedling. Planted in decent ground, but being fertilized with fertilizer that wasn't especially optimal for my growth. In 2016, that seedling grew into a little bulb, but was disrupted and had to be uprooted. It was hard because I was comfortable, and it was scary to know that I would have to uproot and be replanted in another pot of soil with fertilizer that was just right for me. I definitely have to admit, I fought letting go. In 2017, it brought about a season of growing strength and courage to prepare to transition my little bulb. It still needed to be protected because it was fragile. Now, in 2018, my little bulb will be planted in a new pot, with new soil, and new fertilizer. It is there that my flower (that's me, if you haven't caught on) will blossom and
SHINE. (my 2018 Word of the Year)
No matter where you are mentally, physically, or emotionally, remember there is always a time and a place perfect for you to shine.